What is there to do when after a long, excruciatingly irritating and unpleasant year has passed? What is there to do when you've finally let go, taken a breath and relaxed into knowing that what you affirmed one year ago has happened exactly as you said it, inevitably? What is there to do now that what was already known about you is fulfilled and required to move on? What is there to do when life is introducing a new hand for you to hold, new contracts for you to sign, and new responsibilities for you to carry? What else is there to do when all of your nights consist of educating yourself and hoping in the least that you will not fail the next day? What is there to do now that the time has come? What is there to do when you've decided against something, and instead trade that event for some extra time-wh at to do with that time? What is there to do more of that could help others, but in the same sense help yourself?
When is there time to relax, to smile, to know that everything is alright? When is there time to converse with friends without stressing about the politics of now, or the issues coming up in the education system? When is here time to sit and meditate when you're a junior in high school, sleep deprived and full of coffee, sitting around and trying to get everything done from classes you wish you'd taken two years prior? When is there time for family to sit down and simply watch a movie, or play a board game, laughing and holding each other?
How is the future going to look without you? When you leave, how is the absence going to affect the world around? How is time going to move? How is life going to be after this?
How do I let go of what I thought I had already let go of?
Well, fair-winds. Good bye, forever.
